Just when you think you're over it...

You get kicked again as you start to get up from it all.
She's with someone else now.
Can't say I blame her, I met the dude a few times. Nice guy. But it's gunna pop into my head again and again now.
Hey, they're together
Hey, she's forgotten you
Hey, they're doing It together
And those random thoughts are the kicks to the ribs as you try to get up

And as much as I would like to say I'm 100% moved on, which I actually think I am, I still feel tied to her in some way I guess that she doesn't feel tied to me. Greatest love I've ever felt, perhaps? We talked about spending the rest of our lives together and we ended up spending ten months together. Great months, lame ending.

But I believe that I'm better deserving than that. I deserve someone who will not throw it all away because they couldn't understand how tough a time I was going through.
Actually yeah. When she broke it off, it was all, 'this is how I feel' and 'this is what I think', she wouldn't listen to my apologies or reasons. At all.
It's easy to be angry and I don't want to be. The simple thing is this; I wanted a life with her 'for better or for worse', and it seems we worked great in the better times, but crumbled in the worse. And that's partially my fault, for falling silent, and partially hers, for expecting things to be easy and not wanting to fight or hold on in tough times. It could have been a LOT tougher.

I deserve better.
I'll find Better someday. Someday.

Elliot