New Years

So the plan seems to be, go to pub quiz with a crack team of people that know absolutely nothing, myself included, followed by the consummation of gratuitous amounts of alcohol in order to destroy what brain cells we have left.
Sounds excellent! Happy new year, Internet!

Elliot

Closed chapters

Well u did it. Those letters went back. And I got my stuff back. Not much conversation or eye contact, but enough to see that she's still beautiful, and I'd still take her back, even after all this. I'm just not going to wait anymore.
Believe me, if she knocked on the door right now, I don't know what I'd do, other than refuse to let her go ever again. But I'm not going to sit on the doorstep and wait for a miracle anymore.
If you still want me, I'm never far away.
And like I said this morning to you, bloggers: I'll always love her in an unconditional way. Because... Well because... I just do.

Elliot

Christmas and shizzld after

Christmas was good, people liked all the presents I got them, and the family was all happy and stuff. Oh! And I won a box of chocolates at the costume party as Gandalf :L good times...
I updated the life plan yesterday. Put a big cross through 'get her back'. I'd be lying if I said I don't love her any more, but we've become very different people since the breakup, so it can't ever be the same. That's not to say that it ever would be though, I suppose. Oh well. I think I love her differently anyway now; not romantically longingly, more like wanting the best for her because I remember she's worth the best, and nothing less. I suppose that's the closest thing to unconditional love that man can feel for each other,
Looks like she has new horizons with someone else now anyway, not that I'm completely sure. Meh. I'll deliver those letters back and that will be the end of it...until she gives me my stuff back lol!
So my friend whose been rather depressed about failed relationships OS in another relationship again. That would be fine normally, but i was at his house 2 weeks ago and he made no mention of any romantic interests. Jumping into a relationship will probably get you hurt, most of us know this. I thought he did too. Maybe he does, I dunno. Good guy though, I hope he's not trying to find comfort for depression in relationships though - they'll probably fail him, when he's surrounded by awesome family and friends that adore him.
I love you man, and wish you all the luck and god-blessings on the world.

Elliot

Theory test and the LoTR marathon

Passed my driving theory yesterday with flying colours! And how did I manage to pass?
Lord of the Rings marathon of course!
This was brought on by the hysterical joy brought forth by An Unexpected Journey in Aisleen and I, and the fact that I hadn't seen the films for yonks.
So I haven't seen the extended editions before, which is crazy because it was practically my childhood, and OH MY WORD did I love it.
In fact, after the Fellowship... I could only hear the theme tune in my head during the aptly quiet hazard perception in my head, which may have distracted me slightly.
Anyway, what did we do to celebrate my pass?
Watch the Two Towers of course!!!
My fave of the 3 somehow got better. And oh my giddy aunt, Aragon DIES for a few scenes in this version?!?!
Ah we'll. just no. 3 to look forward to now on Saturday :D
Funnily enough, there's a costume party I'm off to on Saturday, and guess who I'm going as...
I'll keep ya posted, Internet ;)

Elliot

Return to sender

She wrote me these silly little letters that I absolutely loved. And we used to hide post-it notes for each other a lot. She wrote them more than I did but I think she liked it that way, being a writer and all. Still, they all make my heart sink now, because of how much I miss her, whereas they always used to make me so glad. One can even bring me to tears every time. So I've decided I'm going to return them.
To me, they're memories I'll always cherish, but they armed from the same heart any more. I won't lie, there's a part of me that hopes she'll read them and have some sort of awakening love in her heart that will suddenly bring her back. But mainly, it's to help me move on. Trying to do do now, because I could well be hung up over her for the rest of my life, but that's not how I want to be. I'd happily love her for the rest of my life, but I can only do so if the feelings mutual. So here goes. Another step into the unknown of my now nearly-directionless life.
I'll pop it round whenever I feel up to it; then of course I'll run like hell.

Elliot

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I was having such a nice day. Then I get blanked on the way home by perhaps the most awkward of people to bump into on the way home; 2 of Her friends from Bath.
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Oh we'll. to be completely honest, I'm moving on now. I gave her a month, because I love her and all, and I got blanked for the whole thing. Over time I've just felt more and more...content. She wasn't my only avenue in life, and I did as much as I could. gave it my best shot. And I've just accepted it. And I think there are some things that I've buried to keep the relationship all fine and dandy, and I don't want to do that any more. I want someone I can pray with, not someone I have to bury my faith for.
And I'm not trying to make it out like om mr. Perfect, maybe/probably she had to do a similar thing. Oh we'll. people change, and things always come to the surface no matter how far down you bury it. I'm not sad any more so that's enough.

Thank you my friends. YOU got through it and you're the colours in my canvas x

Elliot

The Hobbit

Seen it, twice.
Last night me and some friends had this sudden impulse to go see it in 3D, so we did. T'was awesome.
Jonny, my brother, came home from uni today and asked if we could go see the hobbit. So of course I went again, this time in 2D. Awesome still.
I thought it was better in 2D because 3D always makes me dizzy and I think the colours are better on 2D. Didn't notice any difference when it came to frame-rate, but that's okay, I suppose it's 'hi-def'.