The Life Plan

Not so long ago, I made myself a short-term layout of things I wanted to get done or at least work towards. I made it out of frustration at myself. My problem is that I'm too lazy. When things are difficult, I just want to drop them. When there's a chance of failure I don't even bother trying. Well, except for when it's someone or something I utterly couldn't live without. So, it's like a load of early new years resolutions that I've started. Personally, I can't see any flaws in it as such, and i haven't been 100% true to it. I don't have to be, but I do want to be, otherwise what's the point?
So here it is.

1. Learn to drive – Pass theory & practical test.

(at least take one of each test before new year)

2. Finish recording the Album

(Nathan's bass, My/Simon's/?'s Guitars, Synth, Drums, Vocals, Effects, Mixes, Mastering, Artwork, Photography, Names, etc.

Get it al done by early 2013)

3. Get Fit
(Jog or Cycle for at least 1 Hour every 2-3 days. Mind your knees)

4. Give up junk food

(for at least the rest of the year. Does NOT include Subway! Or Pizza, at Dad's request)

5. Focus on your gifts

(Practice guitar regularly, for a decent amount of time. Rehearse with as many bandmates as you have regularly.

Be inspired by sounds, sights and emotions. Do not be afraid to pour your heart onto the lyric page, despite the stigma or scepticism of others.)

6. Honour God in all you do

'Be still, and know that I am God'

'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind; and Love your neighbour as yourself'

'No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us'

'casting all your care upon him, for he cares for you'.

(Lead Cell group well. Help Aisleen with the youth work. Help Simon, Alan, Nathan and the Church Leaders and keep them in your prayers.

Give everything God has blessed you with back to him in prayers and in the way you use those skills, gifts, talents, abilities and blessings.

Repent; be sorry in conviction and changed in forgiveness. Read the word and take it to heart. Prayer is a two-way thing; speak, then listen)

7. Get Her back.

(Okay Ellie – you had a bad moment. But now it's time to pick yourself up, stop giving up on the things you love, and follow your heart. There will be those who will try and stop you and will try to stand in your way. But you can be stronger. If you follow your heart, nothing can get between you and your Moog. Nothing.

8. Make Her proud.

(It could take time. Longer than you'd like. But you're going to get somewhere if you keep on looking forward. And keep going until you can't give any more. To the day that she says “That's my Ellie, and I’m proud of him; and I love him”, and beyond.

9. Stop and assess where you are/where you are going

(are you sticking to the plan? Do you need to add to it or take things off of it? Can your current path be one that the Father would set out for you? How could you make your current situation any better/greater/more successful/more loving?)

10. Beat this thing

(Seriously now Elliot. It's time to end this. Put it in the ground. It is your enemy. It comes to destroy and leave you in the Void. Get out, keep running, and draw your sword against it. It took the person you loved more than anything because it grew stronger and stronger. But now you are stronger. Nothing can stop you now. Because your looking forwards. Your righteous anger that burns throughout your soul has set you free from old shackles. Now Go. Do these 10 things and more.)

You have the Gifts;

You have the Right.

You have the Heart and Mind;

You have the Strength.

And God will bless you and rejuvenate you all the way.

Now go get 'em Tiger.

Actually, re-reading it puts fire in my soul. I'm glad i did this, even the petty bits towards the top.

I started jogging today. I'm fitter than i thought i was, but my goodness does sprinting the last 200 metres or so hurt my insides. My knees are inherantly weak too, but they're alright at the moment. Will just have to watch them.
The fast food thing has had interesting results. I managed to stay off it for nearly a month, and one day i pretty much had McDonalds or nothing. It didnt fill me up, and i felt sick after it. Makes ya think really.
Number 10 is about beating my 'Voids'. I'll explain these in a future post, because it's sleepytime now for me. That is, if my brain will let me sleep tonight, and not wake me up with dreams of Her.

Goodnight =) x
Elliot